The man floating in a river with many directions, ....Drifting and Day Dreaming. Dream of a life not lived. Yet his own life continues to go down stream passively. Many see Him with their vague faces yet Few call out to him. Responding less and less everyday. Keep on drifting.

Its still vakantie time, so i lie at home without anything to do.

I did leave this small beautiful prison , went to guatemala, with the second family. I had so really good moments and sum really bad moments.

Onistly Nii and I did the tegengestelde from actual bonding
Since The Bro's Justin and Andrew came around too, I did miss them, but no one is perfect.
Andrew, beloved brother...has to change his attitude alittle bit. Asshole like, thats not him in general. Got a new feeling from being around justin. It was really relaxing and mellow.....might have ruined it, since i took a semi-sexy picture of him and posted it on DA for artistic reasons....Deceitfully gave him the impression tht i deleted the photo, but smokkeled it toch onto DA. Been caught so its removed...So no you cant see it

But w/e with that for a second.

Current worry on my mind = ALB-ii + Nii(guh)

ALBii Hash aming aitima, HAsh naw twt kije pai vu vash. Hash ta sendji Vu falt Vu calor, Y e Sim Conves enter hashivu. Vu sinji manji heroina dji gesindji di Quer.

I Dear Alb, I hope you're alright....Its weird when something leaves you really notice it. I wanna talk to you now more then ever. There are like things i want to ask you face to face. Things i forgot to ask and say. But that wont happen for awhile . I just want you for now to be mature and responsible , and not to forget us. Be well

Nii-guh , The bro that I (ILY) for reasons unclear to me. Why you call me big brother also flew over my head unnotice. You thrust me yet i don't think you should.

mei-te Prin-djia?
Long ago i asked about something and you gave me an onist answer. I was shocked about your parrent not only being kewl with it yet took part. Call me old fashion but this crosses way over normal protocol , don't you agree. left me worried yet i forgot about it till news came in. Fact two mei-te a kre cu e at prin-djia. Result negative but serious don't you agree. Awkward Question was asked > Answer more then expected. next Q> And the parental overlook . A => knowing with out action ...leading to being neutral meaning not restricted and not bothered.

Shocked i was to hear these, But it isnt my place to judge. I found it irresponsible . I gave my two cents advice , But it still bothers me. Maybe i'm too innocent to handle the truth.

Cant butt in but it has me concerned. Not approving but wasn't bold enough to make the right statement. Neutral , what do you think?

Current feeling > Empty...I feel Cold these last days. I'm Missing something my heroine is missing.

Family > I feel sad for my mother & brother. My mother still is in a state of sheol ish thing. She lives life without purpose, just to float...kinda like me but worse. She gets more and more tired everyday. I see a break down sooner or later. Resource and luxuries are diminishing day by day. The house i live in, not as home-ii as it once was.

You discust me mau, have you no shame,......you give it up set free....yet you turn again, you are so weak you lasted a month or two, your falling again into your sin, deeper and deeper your a slave.......bounded in soul, it burns in the lake of fire, this curse placed apon you.....a curse that streams even now, you are just chained, you thought it was over but its not, you say...say you repent yet you turn and fall as pitiful as you apologies, when you get caught then you’ll cry, you’ll cry sry sry sry, but judgement falls judgement falls!

mercy you recieve now mau, but how long do you want it to last, their knockin at the door, you still not over that line, flesh still is above of you......and you only come when you did it,
You hipocrite i dont even knw how to spell it, you suck go read a book and learn how to read and write propper english, You suck MAU you suck, cause your down you suck......you we’re free but ba kies, ba kies pa cai, cause bo no surender full! Why is that so hard, now you’re slowly but surely going back to where you we’re and keep walk,......mi tin fies di bo!!! Mi tin fies di boooooMi tin fies diiboooooooooooooooo Sali foi mi bida , bai mi kier bo bai bai bai bai bai, i fucking hate you! You foal ulgy grotesk inmoral Sin durt gentile, Everytime i spit, is because i want to throw up all that you have done, all that you mind has consived, you’re curse, that in action you pas it down you fail you fail I HATE YOU i couldnt hate you more........bai mata bo curpa,.......coward!! you wont because you fear, you fear pain, but you wont move cause you fear judgement and dissapointment.../ well it a matter of time...... it going to happen, you hear it everyday, its coming.......its coming, mercy will be shortend.....

So turn turn turn turn walk again STAND UP walk WALK RUN prodical Child you think just because you havent done the sins of normal ppl, that your sins isnt the same! HA , Your in the swine pit! And you cant even smell it.......WALK UP STAND UP, and dont write it ever again, let this be enough.......Get the up, clean yourself! And seek Him, you backslider

Today was great i woke up at my second families house, with load rude awakenings with spanish happy birthday songs and the sound of pans and pots being loadly ran into my head. We Had french toast special made for me for breakfast, The french toast is filled with jelly inside and we ate it with powder sugar ....i spilled most of the sugar lol

I made brownies for school, we made about 30 squire cubes, i was brownie king Again today.

Today i had exams, the agreement with the teacher was, finish your work , give it in and collect your yummie browny.They even sang HB! crazies We have finals and they wanna sing, psycho psycho. It went pretty good, ppl tht werent of my class, like voltures stood outside for free brownies. I gave to these poor souls

I managed to get Most of friends at school a piece. It was so nice...exam went like shit pero ya

After that i went back home to my friends, it was so nice, at first i got to wrestle with my spirit brothers, fun at tht moment, After that we chilled, We cooked together, well me and the youngest brother , We great cooks, We injoyed fresh out of the over brownies with icecream after that. Watched a movie( nick &norah's infnt playlist & my best frds girlfrd) We chilled got to see code geass, chilled more till dusk.


Got home To find my mother waiting for me, along with my aunt, they sang for me too( to much songs ) i found my presents a new soccer ball( sounds simple but i've been waiting for long swa , so grr you i loved it i got new colonia from Ed hardy(, may not be very expensive in the US, pero here prices arent nice okey). I got some money too. And blessed friend of the family bought all the things for the party this sunday...at arashi beach noord aruba!( loook it up )

So happy Swa, great ass birthday

Yet now i go shower for i swety from playing soccer, hypered out and go study for the last exam for tommarow tht i havent even started on...its ( 9:45 already )

Topalo , ayo , te oro , bye, see you later , topa , adios , ciao , Babye, doei , tot volgende keer.

KiteSurfing

Een paar jaren geleden toen ik langs de beach ging, zag ik dece grote vliegers die men gebruikte om heen en weer op het water te surfen . Ik zei dat ik deze sport ook wil doen. Ik wist niet dat ik wel de kans zou krigen om in de toekomst de sport te proberen. Gelukig doen twee van mijn beste vrienden aan deze sport. Ze sijn so goed er in dat ze les geven bij de beach. Doordat ze als mijn broers ziijn, krijg ik gratis les maar helaas hebben we de kite bij onze laatste les gebroken. Nu moet ik wachten voor een nieuw kite , of dat we de oude kite repareert.

Kitesurfen is een relative nieuwe sport , maar wordt heel snel rond het wereld bekent in heel weinig tijd.Ook hier op aruba is het slechts net nu populiar geworden. Als je langs de beach van hadicurari of bij boca grandi namiddag voorbij gaat is het zeker dat je de kites in lucht ziet.

Zelf dat het sport niet zo populair is, is er een jaarlijkse gebeurtenis waar mensen van vele landen komen om in een amateurconcurrentie te spelen . Het gebeurt in juni of was het july, weet ik niet precies maar het heet de” hi-winds competition “. Het is voor windsurfen ok maar in de laatste jaren hoort kite ook erbij. Vorig jaar ging mijn vriend in de wedstrijd en heeft gewonnen eerst plaats in de zijn divisie . Dit jaar hoop ik dat het nog beter wordt voor hem.

Van wat ik heb gezien, lijkt het op een harde sport om met te beginnen, maar je raakt vertrouwd daarvan. Verrassend neemt het niet zoveel armkracht als ik toen dacht maar nog moet je de kite kunner controleren en niet andersom. Klinkt makkelijk maar is niet zo bij meeste mensen. Mensen zijn geneigd de kite wanneer zijn rukken hen te trekken, die in feiten de kite meer kracht geeft. Ik leerde die les goed toen het mijn beurt was. Ik ging enkele meters naarvoren gotrokken door de vlieger, maar na een tijdje kreeg ik het gevoel voor het.

Op het beach naast het marriot , bij hadicurari of fisherman’s hut is er drie platsen waarbij je les kunt krijgen , spullen huren of kopen. De eerste Is bij villa’s naast marriot. Verder naast deze plaats is er een hut die aruwak heet, en tenslotte nog verder naast deze twee ligt Armando’s shaak waar je les ook kan krijgen. Kitesurf als sport is relatief duur, het it ook zo om les te krijgen , normaal betaal je per les, en tot na de vierde les zou je in de water zijn op het plank heen en weer gaan met de kracht van de vlieger.

Ik advies iemand die tijd heeft, geld, een zin van avontuur en moed om deze sport te proberen. Het is echt waard het. Zich slechts herinneren om : slim, veilig en voorzichtig te zijn. Ook om te doen wat is onderricht als onderrichte door uw leraar. Het is echt plezierig en ik hopen dat ik de vlieger die ik brak repareerd zo dat ik het opnieuw kan proberen.